It’s All in the Past now…
Assalaamu Alaikum
I just came to realise that i have been blogging since July 2005… that’s like 2 years… and over all these years… guess how many entries i have?
Answer: 49. This is the 50th. YAY! Silver JubilEE!!
Anyway, i have been reading all my past entries and…. Good God, have i changed so much.
some posts, i couldn’t even believe that i wrote that. but yeah… i have been full of myself haven’t I? hmmm
yes of course, what i have written are mostly very true.. but some are meant for humor only alright. don’t get me wrong when i say some stuff that may sound rather offensive or rude or somewhere along that line. It’s my past, Neither am I ashamed of it, nor do i embrace it. All Praises be to Allah in all circumstances.
My way of life really changed only after september 2006. for some reason, my trip to Australia was kinda like a soul cleansing thAng for me.
I used to be very…… hmm….different from what i am now.
Now, i have realised the importance of Islam… and many things i do now, makes me think from that aspect.
I’ve realised i can’t be too full of myself (for that matter), that isn’t very islamic…
I’ve realised Jeans are not the right Hijab…
I’ve realised i know so little of the Hadith and Quran…
and I’ve realised that this world is nothing but a mere test for the eternal one ahead.
Therefore,
I’ve decided to be more humble in my way of life
I’ve decided to be very selective in my attire… as u know… i have a whole big royal collection of baju kurungs… and 3 punjabi suits…. :S
This is because, a woman’s modesty can be judged by the way she dresses.
and my style is… to keep it loose.
I’ve decided to dissolve and drink the Quran and then make microchips out of the Sunnah of the Prophet (saw) and install it in my brain.
I’ve decided to do not what sounds right to me, but to do what IS right in the eyes of Allah.
I am really thankful to Allah for the person I am now and i really hope Allah guides me to the straight path; and keeps me from deviating from it and makes me a better person within (and without?)
A Prayer:
O Allah, please provide me with a life i shall not regret on my deathbed. Please provide me with friends and family with whom I can continue and improve on my religious duties. Please give me the strength to go thru the Tests in this world and to truly deserve Al-Firdaus in the hereafter. Please give my a future that is brighter than my present and make my present brighter than my past. Please ease my journey in this world and in the world to come. Please allow me to attain all the right knowledge and I seek refuge with You from all the evil in this world and in me.
Buzzing off..
~fana
